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K.. So Screaming Secrets really served its purpose.  The parts of me that lived Raven’s life have shrieked their horror, their terror, and dealt with their helplessness and I have made some level of peace with that period of my life.  I am standing on the other side of it, finally, and I’ve grown so much.  I will not hide anymore.  Not out of fear or shame or any other damn thing.  Fuck em and fuck you too if you think anything other than right the fuck on.  No, I haven’t put it behind me, on some level I think that’s a fantasy that will never come to pass and I’m okay with that.  Those that don’t learn from their past are destined to repeat it.  Fuck that.  I’ll not be ANYONE’s victim anymore. 

But, there is a place I could never really go there.  Granddaddy.  Cunt.  Training the bitch.

I am braver and stronger now.  I know I can handle it.  I know I can get past it.  I have faith in me.  But, I am gonna have to face it and deal with it… just like I did with being Raven.

So Raven has screamed.  Now let’s turn to the bitch.  I doubt she will be able to articulate anywhere near as well… humanity really helps with communication… and it didn’t take long to loose it.

Here we go… down the rabbit hole… I’ll keep my touchstones close, keep your mouse in hand… when it gets too much click that little x.  I don’t expect anyone to follow me down here… but I’m going.  I’m going and I’m gonna bring that little girl out into the light and teach her not to fear it.  But, first, I’ll have to convince her she’s human.